33. Phoenix Ashes

Your memories
are nothing but sweet
to me
as I sit and watch
the pouring rain
outside
and I'm thinking of you

I have
your smile
locked in my mind
and it looks
like I'm not
letting it go
yet

And how you
covered your face
with your tiny hands
so tenderly
as you opened
that wooden
box
and released
the ghost of you
that
still haunts
my days

I said goodbye
without knowing
that
might
have been
the definitive
parting

And maybe
in another life
in another space
and in
another time

I don't judge
you
I just like
watching
you
watching
over you


Maybe
is the fact
we don't
really know
how much time
we have left

Or maybe
my words
are not
making much
sense

But
sometimes
I just don't
need to

I'm outside
and it's pouring
I'm cold and wet
and I'm okay

Just remember
the time
you felt like that

Maybe
not with me
and that's fine

I'm not asking
when
where
who

It doesn't
matter

I'm just
asking you
to remember
that good ol' feeling

So
maybe
you'll
understand me
a little

This
groundbreaking
breathtaking
gut revolving
chest warming
feeling
that won't perish

Like
a wrecking ball

that
made me rebuild
my world
as it demolished
everything
and rocked me
to my
foundations

For all
that
I have to
thank you

And maybe
it doesn't sound
romantic

but
trust me

it's
the truest
purest
thing
you'll ever have