44. Headphones on, eyes closed

"Cause you brought out the best of me 

A part of me I'd never seen 

You took my soul wiped it clean 

Our love was made for movie screens"

Kodaline - All I Want

I understand
the complexity
of the now
and I can feel you
somehow

I think of you
and your smile
I find you everywhere
in eveything
all the time

I often say to myself
"how I wish
she could be here
to see this"
but since we're
bound souls
I think you are

And maybe
you don't
think about me
anymore
and my scar in you
has vanished
from your skin
and I'm just writing
orphan words
though in my mind
you're embracing
each one
welcoming them
home

Mine is
such a self centered
way of thinking
sometimes

Please
forgive this
as it is
the only way
I find to
cherish
your memory
now