53. Damn! Changes

"I'll give you careless amounts of out right
acceptance if you want it. 
I'll give you encouragement to choose the path that you want if you need it.

You can speak of anger and doubts,
your fears and freak-outs and I'll hold it.You can share your so-called
shame filled accounts of times in your life and I won't judge it.

And there are no strings attached,
you owe me nothing for giving the love that I give. 

You owe me nothing for caring the way that I have.
I give you thanks for receiving, it's my privilege,
and you owe me nothing in return.

You can ask for space for yourself
and only yourself and I'll grant it.

You can ask for freedom as well
or time to travel and you'll have it.

You can ask to live by yourself
or love someone else and I'll support it.

You can ask for anything you want ,
anything at all and I'll understand it.

I bet you're wondering when
the next payback shoe will eventually drop.

I bet you're wondering when my conditional police 

will force you to cough up.
I bet you're wondering how far you have now 

danced your way back into debt.

This is the only kind of love
as I understand it that there really is.

You can express your deepest of truths
even if it means I'll lose you and I'll hear it.

You can fall into the abyss
on the way to your blissand I'll empathize with.

You can say that you'll have to skip town

to chase your passion and I'll hear it.
You can even hit rock bottom, have a mid-life crisis and I'll hold it."

You owe me nothing in return - Alanis Morissette

Sometimes

she

or someone else 

speaks my mind 

better

more eloquently

and

more gracefully

so urban nineties 

like Alanis

or beat american poet

like Dylan

or raw

like Bukowski

I'm no writer

but I did what I could

I let your beauty

strain

and flow through me

back to you

In the end

I think they

felt

something

no stronger

than what 

I have felt for you

You have been

pure magic,

Milady

All the 
little talks
the imaginary
worlds
the characters
my mind flew
my mind was blown

I never thought
someone like you
was real 
somewhere

Now 
every time
I think 
about it
I can't help
but smile

Please 

don't get 

freaked out

I get it

I get it all

I really do

You have made 

yourself clear

many times

I apologize
to you
for not
realizing
and the
consequent
fuss

I just could not

see cos

my eyes 

were blurred

by you

I'm still

scratching them

as I'm writing

But 

everything
is falling
in its right place
now

I wish you

the best

happinness

and fulfiment

in this 

and the next lives

were 

I hope

I can find you
again

I will
conquer
this life
as well

Yours faithfully

forever