54. Hang gliding over these days

"I think I was blind before I met you

I don't know where I am,

I don't know where I've been

But I know where I want to go

And so I'd thought I'd let you know

That these things take forever,

I especially am slow

But I realized that need you"

Bright Eyes - The First Day of my Life

When I felt
the best
was to let go
and let things
take its
natural course

not trying
to swim in
against the tide
and just 
float

I felt

better
about you

Stopped
overthinking

Stopped
equating
possessing
with caring

I understood you
better
I guess

Your smile
and your beautiful
paraphernalia
are not so simple
to wipe off
from my mind
even more
when I'm not
trying hard enough

Cos it's 
Monday night
and I find myself
sitting here
writing
again

Then I closed my eyes
and my fists
tightly 
and tried
to send
all my strenght
to you

I must have 
looked so
akward
doing this
so I smiled

I know
you would too

and that's all
I need
that's all
I ever wanted