64. 失礼します。

I must say

(at the risk
of sounding
obnoxious
already
for you
by now
and
on the verge
of seeming
mad)

it keeps
amazing
me
how you
still
keep unfolding
into my life
even after
you're long
gone

is the
you
I got to
know
and
the effect
it caused
on the
then
me

(with all
the situations
self convictions
interpretations
of daily
happenings
and
its soundtrack)

I keep
thinking
it all
helped me
understand you
more

but maybe
what really
happened
is
that
you helped
me
comprehend
and forgive
myself

through
your eyes
I found
a different
point of view
of the things
that surround me
and
even of
the inner
me

after
all these
mumbling

I just wish
you are there
where you are
now
smiling

and
hoping
I have
left
something good
to remember
and that
can hold up

in my passing
through
your life