78. Last but not least

I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you

after all this
nine month trance
and the consequent
partial enlightenment
of my darker side

I got back
to the starting point
only wiser
maybe

though
it may show
I wasn't that wrong
at the time

I needed
to go through
the path
rather than
just knowing it

all I'm saying is
if you are happy now

then I'm happy too

that's the truth
always has been

and that's that
no more words

needed

time and space

are subjective
here and now

and separateness
is but an illusion

coincidence 

at one point 

was magical

and the future

will always

be bright

as long
as I keep
beholding
this
mirage

everyday

my best thoughts

will still go out
looking
for you

through
the thinnest
gaps of light
and thickest darkness
bending shadows
illuminating strangers
as they pass
leaving
a jasmine scented
breeze
behind

until they
finally
get to you
wherever
whenever
you are

I see
we're
standing
in front of
a bifurcation
on this road
we walked
side by side
in this short
but meaningful
amount
of time

I know

you must
take
the right path
and
I understand

I'll keep
walking left
but
all I know
is
we're
parting ways
with nothing
but good
memories
looking
back
down
the road
and that
we are
forever bound
somehow

and that is
how it should
stay

still
and caught
inside
a time capsule
through
this existence

until maybe
we reopen it
one day
when
we're reborn
hopefully
near
each other
again

I believe
we are
in better places
now
thanks to
this pure
mutual
affection
that opened
my eyes
to a renewed
vision of
everyday
things
and people
around

maybe
we are
where we
really belong

everything's
falling
into its
right place

I needed
to make
this silly statement
and not just
let the light
fade out
slowly
cause my
lack of words
from now on
could be
mistaken
by lack of interest
which can not
be further
from the truth

as you may
have noticed
by now
I'm always
straightforward
easy
like Sunday
mornings
specially
with you
since you
diluted
every trace
of pride
prejudice
or fear
in me
since
day one

I know
you kept
moving forward
as I did somehow
so all this
may sound strange
coming
at you now

but I'm
writing
to the image
of you
who stuck around
all these days
to keep me
sweet
company

long enough
to see me ready
to accept
and let go

with no regrets
or hard feelings
I
thank you
from heart
to heart
for your
wise decisions
towards me
and the
lucid dreaming
state
in which
you kept me
all this time

I know
you've always
been there
the only way
you could

I've really
come to
appreciate
and care for you
infinitely
in this
small piece
of life
we shared

I just hope
I helped
a little
and left
something
good
in you
too