16. Nevermind the gap

Trapped in 

Locked in
the vast outside

You are my home

And I can't go inside
My keys don't seem to work
Someone changed the lock
From inside

You're my isle 
and I'm wandering off
in the infinite sea

So I spend my days
searching 
for signs
in your songs

Making utopian
schemes
to try 
and decipher
unexisting codes

I let my thoughts
go out at night
into the streets
to look for you

An army of me
trying to get through
to you

Looking under 
each pebble
on the beach

Behind every
street light shadow
in which we hid

Looking
for vestiges 
of our reflection
in all the mirrors 
they see

I even look for hints
in my memories
of you

Rewinding 
the VHS cassette
of our short film
over and
over 
again

Trying to find things
you said
and that
I might have missed

Inevitably 
time 
makes us regret
the things 
we took for granted

But
I say to myself
as long as I keep looking
the dream 
is not over

Hasn't this been 
a dream
all along,
anyway, Milady?

That time I said
It'll never be the end
I already knew

We're in
a constant
loop
that always takes me 
back to you

Our minds 
seem to be scammed
by our body's
perception
of time

And though I'm not looking
for sympathy
or reassurance

Next time
please raise up
among
the faceless crowd

Look 
deep into my eyes
and tell me
our hearts 
are not