52. Michelle Obaming

"Oh, can't you see what you've done for me

I am happy inside all, all of the time 

...that's all I want you to do

that's all I'll take from you 

Satisfy my soul, satisfy my soul"
(fresh out video)

Bob Marley - Satisfy my soul

If I ever

see you again

I don't know

what would

I do

maybe 

I'll drop 

everything

and run to you

to hold you tight 

in my arms

against me

kiss your 

forehead
countless
times
like a mad man

and never

let you go

again

but 

I will

probably

just freeze

but

if I don't

people

would stop

and stare

at the scene

I'm sure

some will

relate
and smile

and some 

will watch

confused

and strangely

I won't

mind

but 

in the end

everybody

will carry on

with 

their days

their lives
because
that's just
how this is

but

not just yet
because

when I hold you

again

there won't be

any disguising

no hiding

no anxiety

no adrenaline

pumped guts

no tickling vein

in my right eyelid

no looking around

just looking at 

each other's eyes

it will

feel like

coming home

into your arms

after a long journey

exiled

overseas

and you will 

recognize
the
underlying
courage
and

my pledge

to you

in the foreign 

accent

I picked up

during 

that time

there will only

be place

for this certainty

and peace inside

to stay home

all Sunday

and watch the rain

from our
brunch in bed

because we'll

have tomorrow

figured out

but don't worry
I know

just not yet

51. An unfiltered one

the ceiling fan
spins
over my hollow
body
making
these vivid
almost talking
images
I still keep
of you
go round
and round
around me
like little
fairies

yours
is a
sweet
being

you are
everything
I ever wanted
and
all I
want
is you

save me
a place
on your chest
so I can finally
rest
my head
one fine day

let me hear
your heartbeat
closer
once again

come and
replace
with
yourself
this charming
hologram
you left here

and if you
won't
it's alright
too

I'll try
not to be
forgotten
by you
in the
meantime
and
if I am

you've got
all those
secret writings
I've left you
on
sticky notes
on your desk

on napkins
at a restaurant

on ripped pages
of a magazine
in a waiting room

I made sure
to leave traces
if you ever
change your mind
I'm reaching
the way that I can

I think the water
is boiling
I'll go make
some tea
to join you

50. Lost in Her Translation

"Two universes that are really one (link)"

watch me

as I sink

deeper

and 

deeper

into the

vastness

of your eyes

eyes 

that

I haven't

found 

before 

yours

eyes
that

I may not

ever see 

again

but
still

let me

wash

away

in them

forever

because

your hands

can reach

into my past

my present

and the 

days

I've

yet to live

endless days

without

your breath

laying
softly
on my chest

infinite
like the

skyscrapers

lined up

away into

the horizon fog

a view of

a strange

kind of

paradise

we

dreamed

of sharing

together

now
I can see
we caught
each other
falling
into translations
in our lives

I thought
I saw an end
but
it wasn't so

we inspired
each other
to grow
and transcend
and I
would have
never wanted
to limit
you
in pursuing
your happiness

maybe we
couldn't have
found ourselves
if we didn't let go
and lost
a little control

I don't feel
blue
because

every time

I get
carried away

in these

thoughts 

of you

you

become

real
enough

and upon
reading this
I hope
you can
feel me too

always
there
by your side
watching
over you

49. Sushi com feijoada

"quando chegou carta abri

quando ouvi Prince dancei

quando o olho brilhou entendi

quando criei asas voei

quando me chamou eu vim

quando dei por mim tava aqui

quando lhe achei me perdi

quando vi você me apaixonei"

À primeira vista - Chico César

Você
que meu peito
partiu
quando
partiu
esqueceu
de me deixar
as instruções
de montagem

Levou
seu sorriso
e seus
olhos fundos
junto com seu
fofo
estilo chique
e eu só fiquei
com noites vazias
mas
cheias de
saudade

Quando
o vento de lá
bate na
minha janela
e me traz
lembranças
de sua pele
colada
na minha pele
nasce em mim
uma vontade
de sair nas ruas
em procura
dos
inesquecíveis
beijos
da tua boca

Mais eu sei
que é
de madrugada
cheguei tarde
de novo
e ainda você
não acordou

Mas se
penso em
amanhã
ainda é cedo

Ainda é cedo.

48. You're my Motherland

"All you took
I gladly gave
There is nothing left for me to save"

All of me - Billie Holiday

Cheer up,
Milady

Though
this present
seems
so tangled
nobody
should be
deprived
from that
magical
smile of yours

I know
I'm not

I still keep it
inside

I went
out for a walk
and I've seen
the sun today
and I've felt
your warmth
in its rays

Call me
delusional
but this
certainty
I carry
within me
is not

I'll find a way
cos what
I do have
is a remarkable
capacity
of improvisation
and innate
adaptation
skills

47. Ma dame en flammes

"Maybe another time and space

When I look you in the face

Far, far away

Maybe in another life"

Lava Lamp - Thundercat

I wait 

for myself

by my nightstand

to slowly  

fall asleep

so I can creep in

to wake up

in that

alter universe

where 

I can 

still find you

As I'm falling

deeper

into that void

your face

gets clearer

your skin

warmer

and your kisses

become

alive

again

I see 

your silhouette
eclipsing
the light
at the end 
of the tunnel

my heart 
beats faster
as you get 
closer
to me

I guess 
the fuss 
you create
in me 
is a 
constant
in every
universe

As I 
grab you
firmly
by the waist
our chests 
fuse into one
and my scar
ignites
from beneath
my skin
and sparks
start flying
all around us
like 
they always do

My fingers
fit perfectly
between 
your rib bones
like 
missing pieces
of the same 
puzzle

Every kiss
of yours 
burns
but I've been
frozen
for so long
far from you

I stop 
and stare
at your 
lovely face
as you
smile 
and slightly
close your 
eyes

I don't want
to blink
because
I try to
take you back
with me
along 
with 
your image
when 
I open my eyes

but
I can't

I wake up
to a 
cold 
empty space
beside me

But 
your implacable
presence
your breathless 
charm
your unforgettable
beauty
and your
overwhelming
memory

somehow
leap over
space and time
to bring me 
the joy
that I share
with everyone
around
me
on a 
daily basis

and the love
that overflows
for you
inside me
I give back 
to the 
whole world

Since we're
offlimits
during 
this grieve
that burns 
my guts

my best
for you now
are these words

46. Simply said

"I came in like a wrecking ball

I never hit so hard in love

All I wanted was to break your walls

All you ever did was break me

Yeah, you wreck me"

There's
still
some
moments
in my days
where I
find myself

thinking
faraway

nearer to you

And it's not
sadness
that invades
me

cos I figured
you're
happier now
so I'm sincerely
happy
for you

It's just
the warm
feeling
that
tickles me
as it
goes up
my spine

when I remember
the great
times
we had

few
though
precious

like
you

And I know
you might not
be there
anymore

But
what if

What if
you are

I thank you
for being
strong
for everyone

45. The clock on the wall

I know these words might mean nothing now
While i'm stuck in this ghost town
Your softness still haunts me
Someday I'll find my way out of here
If you don't change your mind, my dear
I'll take you with me

Flower Face - Angela

I swear
I felt you there

maybe your scent
or your
burning presence
I can't explain

And of course
it wasn't you

Lately
I tend to think
I'm alone

as I lay in bed
and listen
to a song
that was a hit
in my teens
and still hits
a place inside
that I thought
I've forgotten
and takes me
right back
to maybe
the first time
I saw you

then I zoom out
on myself
me looking
at the ceiling
my house rooftop
the neighborhood
our town
the city lights at night
this continent
planet Earth
people everywhere
worrying
hurrying
loving
hoping
waiting

and the music starts
to fade into
wave sounds
outer space
the moon
Mars
the sun
the Milky Way
the infinite
where all
the different
versions
the ones we've
left behind
and our
potentials selves
spread
and collide
and suddenly
everything's
alright
we are
where we've
chosen
to be

galaxies
tons of them
countless
like grains
of sand
scattered
on the beach
and I bury
my hands
in them
looking for
your
warm hands
inside that
sea of
carbon atoms
and your heartbeat
knowing it's
ticking somewhere
may that be
near or far
and

I swear
I felt you there

44. Headphones on, eyes closed

"Cause you brought out the best of me 

A part of me I'd never seen 

You took my soul wiped it clean 

Our love was made for movie screens"

Kodaline - All I Want

I understand
the complexity
of the now
and I can feel you
somehow

I think of you
and your smile
I find you everywhere
in eveything
all the time

I often say to myself
"how I wish
she could be here
to see this"
but since we're
bound souls
I think you are

And maybe
you don't
think about me
anymore
and my scar in you
has vanished
from your skin
and I'm just writing
orphan words
though in my mind
you're embracing
each one
welcoming them
home

Mine is
such a self centered
way of thinking
sometimes

Please
forgive this
as it is
the only way
I find to
cherish
your memory
now

43. Provoking white noises on your radio as I pass you by

I was looking
for a sign
keeping hope inside
stepping over fear
waiting
for an answer
but there
was none

wherever you are
-though you
might as well be
farther than
the moon
a thousand
light years away
by now-
I know
I will
manage
to get through
to you
somehow

for
my
will
for
you
will
my
beloved
travel
surpassing
the speed
of light
breaking
blackholes
on its way
home

to your arms

the echoes
of my silent
howling at
the stars
at night
turned
into
waves
that expand
infinitely
to outer space
reaching
all the possible
escaping
universes
of the have been
might have been
never been
and
could be's
of this
story
we've been
writing
since the
beginning
of time
like two
fragments
of the same
rock
that the
Big Bang
turned
into
stardust
and now
are looking
to reunite
again

that is why
I send these
thoughts
facing
the dark sky
to
let you know
I still care
for you
and still think
about you
every
single
day
Milady

even when
there's a chance
they might
end up
bouncing
eternally
in metal
splinter mountains
in some
space junkyard
that lies
on a
lunar crater
mixing up
with lost signals
of some 1950's
radio soap opera
that was
broadcasted
when
days where
mono
analog
and
black and white

and we
where sitting
in our
living room
couch
listening to
that final episode
while our kids
were
happily
running
around
us
and I
was holding you
tightly
in my arms