68. After office thoughts of you

today
there's
an infinite gap
between you
and me

vast
like
a thousand
oceans

but
it may be
reduced to
a block
or two
at any giving
moment
of a day

and I think
you're near
when
that chill breeze
caresses me
as I'm driving
down the streets
that remind me
of you

comforted
with a tap
on my shoulders
by the tunes
you've left
on the dial
of my stereo

a few clues
some traces
with no lead

but I carry
a certainty
that I will
find you
eventually

a feeling
inside
that's simple
yet
so deep
that it seems
to have
no bottom

and I
understand
it doesn't
necessarily
have to be
mutual

with
no strings
attached
free and wild
in its purest
state

this is
how I love
you

don't
blush

or
maybe
do

for I
love
your
tender rouge

67. Sometimes I just hit send

I said
upside down
because
this whole thing
is a living
contradiction

you see
through the glass
that's blurred
by the steam
I see you
clearer

some nights
as the foggy
rings
of smoke fly
further away
from my lips
your image
only comes
closer to me
sits beside me
and rests
its pink wigged
head
on my tired
shoulders
so I lay
my warm hands
over your thighs

I thought
the peak was then
and from there
it was all downhill

but my feelings
for you
just got purer
like an aged wine
acquires
scents, tones, colour
with the passing
of time over it

though I just drink
your smells and tastes
over and over
from the few samples
you've left behind
which are
lesser
by the day

like an
infinite
building up
of a song we love
that seems
to never drop
until
it unpredictably
does

I miss
every bit of you

I could
stare
at your smile
for a year

just as
I would
devour
your whole body
in an hour

or hold you
until
the post apocalypse

I know

these are
just words
written
on a screen

but
won't you
stop
for a moment
and think
about this

what if
I told you
it is
all true

66. I still remember exactly how the touch of your skin feels

though
going back
or fast forwarding
in time
still
sounds impossible

you
somehow
manage
to jump over
sideways
into my days
everyday

you
even
sneak in
into
my dreams

like last tuesday
when you came
and whispered
in my ear
"time is relative"
smiled
and faded away
into the light
while I
stood there
frozen

before
I could stop you
and hold you
in my arms
and just
feel
your warm embrace
the one I longed for
for so long
once again

I know
your presence
in my mind
has to do
with
my subconscious

the stories
I picture
and the plot
you must follow
because maybe
I'm giving you
the script

but
I like to think
-and we've
even proved-
it is something
beyond that

maybe
not only
a memory
that's resilient
to just die
into oblivion

but
a happenning
in the future

either way
you've made me
feel full
aware
and
overflowing with
joy

even if it's
tough
for you to read
I'm not
ashamed to say:
like no one else
has ever
made me feel
before

you've done it
in the past
now
and on those
memories
of our bright future

65. Whenever you think about me, grant me a smile, whatever you feel about me now, just for old times' sake

lost you in the abyss between words

so you're not there

anymore

well

all I know 

is

I'm here

and 

though you 

might not noticed it

you are

always 

around
me

fooling around

singing Carole King

songs in my ears

or

lying in the couch

behind me

while I 

frantically

hit the keys

of this wornout

keyboard

witnesses

of many stories

in which

you are

the usual suspect

and I

stand defenseless

before the jury

now
I'm walking

down the aisle

they're

closing down 

the court room

doors

we

may be parting

now

but that means

we're moving 

forward

I know
what you'll say

that's 

life

but

there's

a piece

of me

that leaves

with you

love, Yours Truly

64. 失礼します。

I must say

(at the risk
of sounding
obnoxious
already
for you
by now
and
on the verge
of seeming
mad)

it keeps
amazing
me
how you
still
keep unfolding
into my life
even after
you're long
gone

is the
you
I got to
know
and
the effect
it caused
on the
then
me

(with all
the situations
self convictions
interpretations
of daily
happenings
and
its soundtrack)

I keep
thinking
it all
helped me
understand you
more

but maybe
what really
happened
is
that
you helped
me
comprehend
and forgive
myself

through
your eyes
I found
a different
point of view
of the things
that surround me
and
even of
the inner
me

after
all these
mumbling

I just wish
you are there
where you are
now
smiling

and
hoping
I have
left
something good
to remember
and that
can hold up

in my passing
through
your life